This is gonna be another bright post. Hopefully. HMMMM just a post about these two girls that are on my mind right now. Eww cheesy. Its just that I rarely talk about them and confess to them. So I'm going to do it now 😈💪 Actually this idea came yesterday after we spent some quality time. Yeth, we spent a lot of time and my diploma days are better everyday because of them. After months of not meeting, we finally met yesterday. To Mersing we went. It was a very fun car rides with them. The ride to Mersing was full of us joking, singing and screaming. On our way back, it was just full with flashbacks, confessions and some heart to heart talk I guess. Years of friendship, I had never got the chance to thank them properly. I don't really know how to express outwardly but this is me. But guys, thank you. Theres so many things that both of you have done to me that I am thankful for. Helping me throughout my biggest fear like feeling rejec...
"I'm the one I should love in this world. Me, who shines, my precious soul. Now I finally realize, so I love me. Though I may lack some things, I'm so beautiful" - Epiphany. The truth is, I am NOT depressed. Rather than self-claiming I am depressed, I would say that I just think a lot and that makes everything hard, makes me weak. There are just lots of loud voices in my head telling me that I can't do this, I am going to be nothing, everyone is doing well but me. And that's that. But the thing is, I can't seem to stop the voices. Because it is my OWN voices. It is in my OWN head. Yes, of course I can just brushes all the voices away and distract myself. But sis, it wasn't easy. If you think the voices will just go away by blocking your ears, NO. I am trying to get rid all of the voices that bring me down. It will take time but it will be okay, right. Anyway, I'm getting better. I feel so cruel to say this but I am avoiding pe...
"I can't breath and my heart feel stuffy, the same action keeps replaying in my head" The title might be depressing but I am trying to write a less-depressed post. I am not in the state of depression, by the way. I got lost in my emotions sometimes. Maybe because I always decided to write when I am sad or overthink things. That's why the posts sounded soooooo depressed 😌 And I realized that my negative posts made my friends worried? Making people worried are not the best thing I would do pun. So today I decided to write while I am at my happy state. Besides being with Iskandar, there are so many things that could make me happy. I just avoided doing it. Instead of doing things that could make me happy, I always got myself doing thing that I just wanted to do before thinking about the side effects. First thing on the list is always to write in my bullet journal. This blog might contain a lot of my worse side but my brighter side is a...
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