I am someone.

There's times when I look into the mirror and ask myself, who am I?

Who am I in five years?

Would I be living well?

Of course, I would end up thinking positively, that everything is going to be just alright.

These days,

I am very worried about myself.

But I enjoy doing nothing.

I wish I have more money.

I wish I took my car license earlier.

Because I realize that I am kinda lagged behind.

Why, I live differently from my other friends?

Sometimes I wonder those kind of things too.

I admit sometimes I lost to bullshits words.

Why, my friends whose far above me ask how am I doing but look down at me after they heard my answer?

Is it because they're above me?

Is it because I did not live as a normal person?

I tried not to care and always tell myself that I have my own path too.

And I don't walk the same paths as them.

Their path may be glamorous, easier, extravagant and all.

My path is clearly different.

At 21, is it normal to be feel this useless feelings?

At 21, I am still wondering what I'm gonna be in the future.

I really, really wanna live well.

Whenever I went to Ikea, I would always imagining things, 

how nice it would feel to have a house as nice as the showroom.

I mean, everyone would feel that, right? 😋

But a fact about me.

I am someone who don't like sharing about my future plans.

I don't like anyone trying to figure out my future.

And a secret about me, I have a dream.

This dream is like a star I keep in my pocket.

I have this dream from the early stage of my diploma.

Since I took Diploma in Business Management, I wondered what would be the best thing to have as the outcome of my diploma life.

I always love working in management part.

But I tried to brainstorm something new that could happen if I am brave enough to be outside of my comfort zone.

This is the star I am talking about.

Few years of studying, and working, and save money.

I would open up a boutique. 

The boutique will start small. 

The supports from my family & friends will make the boutique bigger.

When time passes by, the boutique will indeed become bigger.

It will start selling women clothes, and then men clothes, and then kids clothes.

Time passes by again, the boutique links to a small, cozy cafe.

One side for my business, the other side is just my .. love.

Since I love coffees, and cakes.

The husbands and boyfriends can wait for the wives and girlfriends shopping, while sipping coffees from my cafe!

Omg guys, imagine!

DUSH!

That was just a dream, dream is called dream for some reason.

Sometimes it did not meant to happen.

Imagine how much money I would spend if my dream becomes true.

But hey, writing up about my dream, makes me feel better.

Now Playing : Sandglass - Lee Daehwi & Ong Seongwoo

                   

'though the sand may fall down
and our time may run out
though time can’t be turned back It’s okay okay'