wina being wina

This is gonna be another bright post. Hopefully. HMMMM just a post about these two girls that are on my mind right now. Eww cheesy. Its just that I rarely talk about them and confess to them. So I'm going to do it now 😈💪 Actually this idea came yesterday after we spent some quality time. Yeth, we spent a lot of time and my diploma days are better everyday because of them. After months of not meeting, we finally met yesterday. To Mersing we went. It was a very fun car rides with them. The ride to Mersing was full of us joking, singing and screaming. On our way back, it was just full with flashbacks, confessions and some heart to heart talk I guess. Years of friendship, I had never got the chance to thank them properly. I don't really know how to express outwardly but this is me. But guys, thank you. Theres so many things that both of you have done to me that I am thankful for. Helping me throughout my biggest fear like feeling rejec...

"I can't breath and my heart feel stuffy, the same action keeps replaying in my head" The title might be depressing but I am trying to write a less-depressed post. I am not in the state of depression, by the way. I got lost in my emotions sometimes. Maybe because I always decided to write when I am sad or overthink things. That's why the posts sounded soooooo depressed 😌 And I realized that my negative posts made my friends worried? Making people worried are not the best thing I would do pun. So today I decided to write while I am at my happy state. Besides being with Iskandar, there are so many things that could make me happy. I just avoided doing it. Instead of doing things that could make me happy, I always got myself doing thing that I just wanted to do before thinking about the side effects. First thing on the list is always to write in my bullet journal. This blog might contain a lot of my worse side but my brighter side is a...

A good listener might be a good person to reach to. Someone that listen to your EVERYTHING and actually tries to be in your shoes. And comes out with helpful advises. People love reaching out to good listener because good listener never judge. A good listener helps us let go all of the things that mess our mind. But thats its, a good listener -- listens. After the good listener listens, it ended up with a 'thank you', a 'i feel more at ease'. Nobody ends it with a new start. I mean who ends the ted talk with 'what about you?' or simply asking is there anything bothering you. Nobody cares if the good listener were having so many killing thoughts on their minds. Have you ever wonder how easy would it be, if the person who always reaches out a good listener, reaches out to be a good listener too. My sentences got really messed up right now but I hope its understandable. A friend of mine, a good friend of mine, called me today to hav...

I feel anxious while writing this post. I clicked on backspace for like thousands times already. I wanted to say, but nothing comes out. All these while, I keep labeling myself as a non-over thinker. Because I am more easy-going when it comes to feeling. A guy might suddenly comes to me giving chocolates and others would think about it for the whole night. Thoughts like .. 'he likes me?' 'so he had a crush on me?' While me, a non-over thinker would say thanks and let it go. I don't really like having so much thoughts in my mind. But recently, I became so anxious with my whole life, with my future. I don't really show my feelings to anyone or what-more talk about it with anyone. I'd love to keep it to myself. These days I keep getting thoughts like what if I cant make it? What if I'm late. Because I grew up in a society that think you have fail because you are left behind. Sometimes, I really wanted to turn back time. Or. Someti...

So beautiful, that she deserve every flower in the world. She's someone that is always there. No matter, How many days of us not talking. How many weeks of us not checking on each other. How many years of us not seeing each other. I know she's always there. The starting of our friendship was very beautiful. As beautiful as our friendship over the years. Our personality matched well back then. So the chemistry was there. Then we grew up, we found our own different-personality. She became more confident and active while making so many friends. While I became more reserved and cautious in making friends. But the chemistry is still there. We still clique. That's what makes the friendship beautiful. There's some times, where I don't feel that we're still the same. Also there's time I feel like I'm forgetting her. I'll do whatever it takes so that I'd get myself back together. I remind myself that ...

I am a bit late, but better late than never, aite? So after finishing my studies, I... dont have anything to do. I wanted to work but clearly its not as desperate as I should have been. I fill my free time with a lot of stuffs. I learn how to cook -- now I am a pro-chef 😜 I learn how to do bullet journal -- it was fun and all you need is creativity! I learn some researches & histories from the internet -- when I dont know what to do with the internet anymore. And recently I learnt about Queen Elizabeth. It was fun. I also do some babysit, with both my nephew & niece -- Iskandar & Ilyana. Iskandar became suuuuuper cheeky & knows how to tease people. He's growing up!  Sabar jap Iskandar, Cikna going to do a whole appreciation post for you later 😎 While Ilyana, by the time I'm writing this, she is 10 days old! And my very recent activity is, getting my driver licenses! O.M.G! Few steps to take, I can finally drive!  I actual...